I want to stand naked in the snow

I want to stand naked in the snow
Until my skin stops hurting
And my lips are numb
And I feel something

I want to stand naked in the snow
Until I forget why I'm doing it
And I start to cry
And my tears freeze

I want to stand naked in the snow
Until my body gives up
And I sink into the softness
And I die

I want to stand naked in the snow.
Here. Hold my clothes.

Caught Off Guard

I never thought
I would feel this way.
Things were so certain.

But I trusted
A treacherous heart.
My own.

And now I can clearly see
Where I went wrong.
And still...

I am sometimes caught
Completely off guard.
How did this happen?

If there is one thing I've learned.

Being an adult is not all it's cracked up to be.
Love isn't like a movie. 
You can't convince your heart.
Comparing yourself to someone else is ridiculous.
Waiting for other people is useless.
Disappointments abound.
You can't always just pick yourself up.

Thank goodness it's not just one thing.