Sister of My Heart

I grew up alone
Played make believe and
Talked to ratty-haired dolls
I wish I would have known you then

I felt so alone
During my teen years
Wrote all my sadness in a journal
I should have known you then

I know I'm not alone
You make me a better person
Time spent together passes so quickly
I am grateful to know you now

We do not face life alone
Share our joys and our pain
I am happy for your happiness
I will know you forever

You are the sister of my heart

For Neva

Compose

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Existence

We do things in life
What everyone expects
The next stage of development
Documented on some scientific timeline
And if inside we are melting
Facing a darkness we know

Exists

But can't share
We think no one can identify
Not true
So we go on
Marching forward
What comes next
Letting generic expectations
Define our decisions
It's disgusting really
Better not to think about it

Fork From the Thrift Store

Someone probably scraped their teeth along you
The source of those swirls I can't scrub off
Was it tuna casserole or lasagna?

Maybe they stabbed a steak
The end of a stressful workday
Used you to push down anger bite after bite

But you are in my kitchen now
I cleaned you and dried you off
Took you to work and ate my salad

All That Remains When Youth is Gone

Youth will fade
and so will looks
(if you had them at all in the first place)

And all that remains
Memories of invincibility
Just a small taste

You're left with a face
You don't recognize
Hands that look like your mother's

Pictures of you smiling
Before children and life
And long forgotten lovers

Killing Hope

It is not so hard to kill
To crush under your heel
A dream and a light

An offhand remark, a scoff
A few choice words
Someone will not be alright

The Child Becomes an Adult

Our limbs grow long
Our tempers grow short
Our eyeballs stay the same

Our memories grow long
Our time grows short
Our fears remain the same

Our love grows long
Our love is cut short
Our love remains the same

Children never grow
Except for the parts that do
And we can never change

It Certainly Doesn't Make You Seem More Literate

shouldnt cant wont
whered all the apostrophes go
whos in charge
i wouldve fixed it but nobody cares about
whats proper anymore

Silence in the Stick Shift

First gear:
What?

Second gear:
Don't.

Third gear:
silence

Fourth gear:
I'm tired of listening to all the
things you don't say
Shut up and tell me something real

Time.

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You can never have enough.

Trying to Convince My Mother

Plus it will be a great opportunity
Plus I have never lived away from home before
Plus I will meet new people
Plus there will be lots of things to take pictures of
Plus I found a place to live
Plus my flight is already booked
Plus it is only for a few months
Plus I will call often

Plus I promise I won't decide to stay

Yes.

I promise.

You Have Permission to Stop Thinking

forget who you know
or what you have done
forget how far you've traveled
and from whence you've come

just focus on this moment
pay attention to these words
breath in, breath out deeply
forget happiness and hurt

I give you leave to stop
permission to let things be
allow your mind to wander far
without any thought of me

Why Not Today?

You never know
What life might throw
Right in your way
Why not today?


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Poetic note: Something short, four syllables each line, plus a little rhyme

Self-Doubt

Do you know what you are capable of?
Do you know what you know?
Do you know your potential?
Do you know which way to go?
Do you know what is beyond you?
Do you know where you'll be?
And if you're wondering why I ask,
It is because of me.

Control Over Loss or Gain

what's the point, said I
face shiny with rain
as if I had any control
over loss and gain:
of confidence, of time
of sorrows, of joys
or childish dreams
of little girls and boys

Back Burner

Simmering and stewing
In the rear there, see?
A bubbling pot of something
that I've been cooking.

No, you can't try it! Don't ask!
You wouldn't like it anyway!
It's bitter!

The name? I call it Regret.
It should not be served, ever.
Leave it on the back burner on low.

Regressing

Someone told me once
That when you feel uncomfortable
In the face of change
It is usually because
You are growing
As a person
An individual
In maturity
In experience.

But, if that is true
I wonder why
I feel like I
Am



Regressing.