Flying Without a Safety Net

Liberating.
Terrifying.

The Passage of Dates, Age and Me

I'm thinking about time
My brain refuses to be wrapped around the concept of

PASSAGE

I'm thinking about time
My emotions aren't tied to calendar

DATES

I'm thinking about time
My fears don't necessarily relate to my

AGE

I'm thinking about time
But time never stops to think about

ME

Tasks

I've got a list of things to do
I carefully maintain it.
I number each item and color code
Like it's a fashion statement.
When the day is done I check.
I'm comforted to find
Not yet done, still got a job.
That's the daily grind.

Confidence

Wherefore art thou confidence?
On a balcony, staring down.
Sweat on your brow
and your hands are quite clammy.

How unexpected! I thought you'd be taller.

Feeling Foolish

A feeling too much felt
Feels wrong, feels concerned
Feels untrustworthy, feels shameful
Feels nervous, feels young
Feels foolish, foolish, foolish

A feeling, or is it me?

Have I felt too much?

Sockets

All the love you loved
and the worries, fears
Aspirations for a life, your own
Now, just teeth in a skull
And I'm staring through your hollow sockets

Thinking, it doesn't matter at all.

Your eyes, my eyes.